Fear, the same sentiment that leads to visions of our impending doom should we make the wrong decision, embarrass ourselves or fail miserably, has been creeping around my place recently. The sly little devil lurks in the shadows waiting for those moments when I am alone to pounce and wrestle me to the ground with its weapons – doubt and insecurity.
I have always prided myself on the ability to pursue my dreams, follow my passions and be true to myself. However, my frightening little stalker seems to have hit the pause button on my most recent goals. Instead of moving forward, I’m running in place frozen by hesitation and fear. I’m frightened of the mistakes I could be making, the failure I could be inviting and the changes that are inevitable. After all, I may be in my twenties, but my life has already been marked by a few whopping errors that have filled me with a deep sense of regret.
It’s only in my moments of clarity that the truth becomes apparent: Risk is a necessity of life. Without risk there would be no adventure, passion, love or action. We would remain frozen in place filling our hearts with the regret of not taking the chance for greatness. And greatness would cease to exist, while we would cease to dream. What good are dreams if you do not/will not try?
I’ve come to realize that it’s about damn time that I kicked my unwelcome house guest to the curb. I will use my fear to proceed with caution and wisdom, but it is no longer a welcome constant in my life. The only way my dreams will ever come true is if I actually get off my ass and do something about them. So today I am taking that first step! I’m emailing my boss to discuss cutting my hours to part time in order to have the time to pursue other business ventures. I’ve worked out the numbers and should be okay financially, but it’s still terrifying.
I could either fall flat on my face or be the next Oprah. Either way, it’s time that I start creating the life that I want. So you saw it here first folks – I am leaping.
What would you do if failure was not an option? How do you deal with your fears?